When , Where and How ?

Hey * getting emotional 😭* *sobbing silently so no one can hear * . I am feeling a roller coaster of emotions rn. Can I just scream for a moment? I will, anyway . *Arghhhhhhhhhfjeiebtbsnndndmffmfk* intense screams more like a zombie.

I wasn’t dead or went to any break or something. I was on a tour to my planet Neptune, yes , that’s where I belonged to . You know I’m a alien 👽. Humans , recently discovered one of our spy in Mexico. They were 2 . One male another female ( she was pregnant) they were about to live a life here but then a bomb from ww2 made them lifeless. Now scientists are researching on them . So we had a meeting there on Neptune. That’s it .

That’s a joke guys , chill . Maybe if they really thinks I’m an alien 🤔?

Where I was ?

I last posted on 2nd September. The begining of September,now it’s October already started , 2nd day it is ! My exams were starting (half yearly) so it was important for me . Took all the distraction aside *look you’re not my distraction,my fellow follower/reader it’s just your amazing content I’m eager to read.

My whole month was about to get waste for that exam ! Anyway ,on 29th September it ended . I got independence not really but transitory. Then I decided to come back to you 🥹 but then Wp played a game with me . I opened my jetpack app I found out I was logged out of account. I tried and tried to login again. But it wasn’t responding. Then i contacted the team . They told me to read the similiar articles maybe if I can find what my problem is . Now after trying thousands of time logging in . I gave up . I cried that my poems , my designs , my writings ahhhhhh!!!! It was a nightmare for any blogger like me . I know not everyone here is to read my blogs but some are and I’m ready for those . So one day I found that my web version was working well . I decided to post my blog through that but it felt weird as I always work from my android version. Today I decided to try again and now out of nowhere it’s working 😭. I was so overwhelmed. In between of this post , I got logged out several times but this post is completed. *A sigh of relief*

When ?

It all happened in between 29sept – 2nd October. It was like a nightmare. Even nightmares doesn’t felt more horrible .

How ?

When I abandoned my site I was thinking maybe I should stop blogging now . My life’s hectic these days and the responsibility of becoming a adult is just weighing my shoulders down 😭. Idk what’s gonna happen? I still remember I was feeling nothing . No emotions no desires no interest of doing anything.

Even I left studying for a period then . It was hard . I stopped going to my tution classes and wasn’t even interested in music . It as hollow and dark as the space . Vaccum , no sign of life inside me 😶‍🌫️. I’m feeling it all now . Life inside me wasn’t dead . It just gave up . Now I am well .

The wounds will not be healed but I can bare them now .

Your favourite blogger (A.H.Rudy)

Ps : thanks for 100 followers I totally forgot 😄.